triple heart.

i'm loving:
these pictures
this blog
these brownies 

also: 
a lovely little guest blogger will be doing a few posts here very, very soon.
stay tuned.

image via abby.

just blank.

how many times do we create a vacation that we need to take a vacation from? i think i forgot to leave a day of nothingness at the tail end of my vacation; instead, i cleaned my apartment and balcony from top to bottom. and then was even more dead tired afterwards. oops.


i need an intentionally blank page. i used to do the same thing when i was journalling all the time. it's a good idea. a moment to be quiet and reflect and just ... do nothing.

image courtesy of zutaten

oh, hello.

so i'm just gonna put it out there, because i know you're thinking it anyhow.

i recognize that it's been a ridiculously long time. oh, hello again.

big changes here. so many big ones i don't even know where to begin. i'll just have to get to them as i get to them. that seems to be my motto lately ... one step at a time. baby steps, even.

some things i didn't realize before i began this whole whacked-out process..

• that i really had no clue what i was in for
• that's sometimes the challenge about making big sweeping changes to everything
• that life without cable is an entirely different animal when you're living by yourself
• that being said, i really love coming home from work and making a big ole plate of sweet potato fries with a side of chipotle aioli and watching glee. i'll have sour jujubes for dessert too.
• while taking (completely unintentional) time away from the blogworld to work on getting myself grounded again has been pretty ok, i miss it.
• at times, blogging helped me keep mindful
• at others, i felt so, so terribly inauthentic.
• i'm not going to be inauthentic anymore
• that's not to say this is going to become a tell-all blog, so y'all can breathe easy
• i'm re-reading my post from the beginning of the year and i feel like a totally different person
• no, seriously, i do. that's a good thing.
• particularly that whole 'what we give our attention to is what we become' shebang. how wise is that gwen bell?!
• sometimes i get so wrapped up in the anxiety of the moment that i forget to be mindful. and why i'm doing and sometimes i panic and forget to breathe
• and sometimes i just need to remind myself, this will all be ok someday
• i said today that i wish it was three months from now.
• i take that back
• i'm glad i have today. today is where i learn. today is who i am. today is what i make of it.
• and that's when i put one foot in front of the other, and take another baby step forward.

just remember

we're all in this together.

photo by nancy paiva

chalk philosophy

oh, hello.

i'm dipping my toes back in as an effort to create some sort of routine around here again. it's been a while.

i'm going to make today into a sidewalk chalk kind of day: bright, whimsical, and temporary. it's important for me to remember right now that the way things are right now isn't the way they're gonna be forever; they'll wash away with the rain and i can always start again to make a new masterpiece.